Destiny

"Do u believe destiny?" this is a question my friend asked me. And i didn't know how to answer it. Because some times I think the things happened on me can be called destiny. But the most other times that's can't be called the destiny. During our lives, we decided our own plans or goals and not the destiny. Thought about this I think the reason why I believe destiny is that because some times I have no courage to face a couple of things and I usually use the word destiny to excuse myself. "That the thing I couldn't do is depending the destiny." (That's really a stupid way to turn a blind eye to reality.) And the reason why I don't believe the destiny is that because there have no body know my future, the only way can let me know my "destiny" is keeping going my own life and show others the tracks which i did.

cloud & sun

Girl: You said wind will dry the cloud's tears, but how it's going when the wind stopped?
Boy: The sun will come out and use his heat to warm the cloud.
(Boy pointing to sky.)
Boy: Do you see the rainbow?
(Girl put her head into boy's arms. a sweet smile is lying on the girl's cute face.)

Random thought

I always have some random thought. Some of my friends said I am a good thinker. But they also suggest to me that I shouldn't think too much, because I am already looks old.
Last night I watched "The Godfather" I and II. They were really good. I just heard those movies are good before. Now I think AL Pacino was amazing. He played really well.
Through the camera lens I seemingly went back to 1940’s. From the movie I found human’s minds are too complex. Maybe I should say human’s desires are hard to be controlled. Don Vito Corleone began his “business” stressed by his poor life. After having his life style changed, he was already couldn't stop that. Then his family also went on this way.
Desire is a double edge sword. It could help you when you have less morale. Also, it could hurt yourself if you want to get more which are already beyond your limit. But the desire is really hard to be dealt with. Tagore said “In my frail canoe I struggle to cross the sea of desire, and forget that I too playing a game in it.”
(not finished)

some thing about me

Some times I think I know myself very well because I can analyze many problems. Some times I believe I don’t know myself well because I lack the perception to deal with some questions. Does everybody have these two sides?
Several seniors told me every person has their own goal in life. If the things you are going to do or you are thinking about doing are not helpful for your goals you should not to do them. I suppose those people think too rationally.
I miss my parents because I am abroad alone.
I miss some of my grandparents because they are very kind and they also miss me too.
I will miss “her” when I can’t see “her” because I think she is my angel.
I often want to have a break because I feel tired or bored.
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However, I know this is perceptual knowledge.

I always want to have a calm mood. The lake is always quiet but if a person throws a stone in it, it will have waves.. I believe my mood is like a lake; I always have ripples but I can be quiet if I want
I like Rabindranath Tagore’s poems. The romantic words expose the truth. From his words I know the farthest distance in the world. Though his words I find the human’s heart to be very fragile.

Finally I found that I am a perception

(Not finished)

Traveller(3) 1/2/2007

Life is illusion

We are just the traveler

Like birds through the sky live nothing

But I want my life live a track on this world even it is also illusive.

Traveller(2) 1/1/2007

A bird is flying in the sky

He can always see rosy clouds and rainbow

It looks like us

When we are on our way of lives

Friends are always with us

Traveller 12/17/2006

I looked out of the window

A bird was going through the sky

He stopped at a pine tree

I thought there should be his nest

But I was wrong

He left after a while

At that time, I found the bird was on the way of a long trip

And the tree was just a place for rest.